i had like 3 budwisers and a hot tub, if you must know and that sets a state of mind.
What would i write to Her the woman of my obsestional ilralization. (fuiger of a woman i dont know but imagin) you all can write on too if it helps you explore the inner you. Even if your in a relationship have a wife or whatever. write to the person you have an ideal of. girls guys dont matter who,,, .
I dont know what you look like but alwasy you are very buatuaful, charming, witty, as strong as i so we could play ruffuscansun… lol
but always are you a mistary of a person. I lust for a woman in red hair, who body is soft and firm, your voice soothing and jentaly as the winds brezz. Eyes bigger and deepers then the ocean itself. a heart so big it plays loader then a drumset at a metallica consert. *gulp* and in the end if i could sculpt you just right you would be everything i couldnt immagin and even more then meets the eye. *gulg big*
There has never been a perfict woman from what ive seen nor has there been a man whos worth seems sturdy to that of any laidy.
Instead i find a woman whos not so far gone and put into her my heart, my worth, the ensensse of myself to build an ideal of romance in a person that is only second to the one i really seek.
Then she becomes the one blind of the physical feets and all of what is emotional.
I found that woman once, that feeling, that longging for somthing greater then myself and that of lust. *gulp* but it did not find me. Instead i lead a path of mistook understanding hardships unsertencys and much more that could make a man feel as if hes reached the end of a long road to a edge of great distance down to nothingness.
Where do you go now when the road is endded and all is seen as forsaken. what path do you seek when your road is at its end. Do we embraces the nothing ness or take faith in the unseen road which lies ahead….(indani jones and the holy grial)
I dont know. I live but for one reason to live and experance life, Nature whould have me in its game of reporduction and call it love. I call it madness or a uncomplete half circal of truth. where Truth and seeking truth have a great distance. Seeking turth is the fun in the game where truth is the end and death.
to be unknowing and know not is to live, to be excited to want to live. but if you know all then all is to be shared and no new comes which means youve reached the end.
As part of our ever winding path twards equalibraum we find many path of excitement and joy. Mine resides in knowing i will never know who she is or that i will never have her. So ture is this that the path of life has not meet its end and i soilder fourth to suffer a lesser end and misfuorten.
I love for the purpose of loven, not for the person who you are or who your not. but for the chemical and physical make up of who i am…
Ask me later and ill post the things which i worte once when i thought i had somthing and it was alll to fall but then never read again as a way of forgeting all that once was.
If this is a mumbaled mess to you then ignor it, if its not then try to learn from it.
